Out of Sight, Out of Mind
This spark surfaced while I was serving as lector during worship, reading 1 Samuel 16:1–13 aloud.
Coherence is the original state. Everything else is drift.
Seeing through the illusion — works that reveal hidden systems, deconstruct performance, and open new sight.
This spark surfaced while I was serving as lector during worship, reading 1 Samuel 16:1–13 aloud.
Awakening often feels like a curse before it becomes wisdom. Ignorance can feel peaceful, knowledge can feel heavy, and only through acceptance do we learn how to live gently with what we see.
I’ve been thinking about performance anxiety lately—not as something to fix,
but as something to listen to.
This is not a religious argument.
It’s a human one.
It’s about how we learned to live at scale,
what that cost us,
and the one human life that showed what we lost.
It’s also about how that life found me again.
How a tattoo taught me systems, drift, and the beginning of my discernment.
A reflection on what happens when a life stretches beyond its natural shape — and the quiet grace of returning to the river you really are.
What started as a curiosity about meme culture carried me back to rupture, to grace, to Christ,
and to the simple, sacred decision to be. Always.
This reflection traces how presence and grace live in tension:
between clarity and kindness, between comfort and awakening,
between the Christ who soothes and the one who stirs.
I never really interviewed for jobs. Each one found me through presence. And this morning I realized — Christ has been my longest interviewer.
Jesus isn’t just the Redeemer.
He’s the Reviver—the Protagonist of Time,
walking backward through the chaos
to make sure love still makes it to the end.